Hello, new month! September was a month with so many ups and downs. I remember how excited I was when the month started. I was pumped up for a new semester start and getting back to normal daily rhythm. My excitement only lasted for a few days. I had anxiety and never-ending mood swings.
As I was having a conversation with a close friend, what she said came as a blow to my face. “Michelle, you sound confused. Is something wrong” I was frustrated at that moment because I was not ready to hear that whatever I was said did not make sense. But the truth is, she was right. One moment, I would be happy, full of energy with good ideas and plans, but the next, I would be the opposite. I was going through an emotional roller-coaster.
However, as we approached towards the end of the month, things started to feel a little better. Sharing my thoughts with Axel, accepting the situation as part of life and personal growth, gave me a feeling of peace in my mind. Spending a few days away from home last week also helped to clear mind.
After last month experience, I have chosen to focus on being reasonable with myself. Taking a day at a time and just going with the flow. I’m creating a list of my thoughts as well as plans that are realistic and attainable in this month. There will not be any high expectations in October as I had previously. I’ll be challenging myself to fight negative thoughts and shift my perspective onto positive things. And, lastly, I will try question myself “what are some of the tiny things that I want to value more?”. By practicing this small act, chances are, different answers might lead into me noticing and appreciating what I have in my life.
How was your September experience and what plans or goals do you have for October?
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